Get to Know Me
If you feel stuck, overwhelmed, stressed or depressed then you need to know you’re not alone! I get it! As the saying goes … “been there, done that”! Here’s a little bit about my story.
On the outside looking in, I was really successful. I climbed the corporate ladder to senior leadership, married a successful man, two beautiful children, dogs, a 46-ft yacht, Jet Ski and a membership at a posh yacht club. Even so, I was depressed. I never showed it because people “like me” don’t get depressed. Heck, I would even show up at my therapists’ office with a smile on my face and tell her things were fine.
I hid behind a mask, presenting an image … the way I wanted people to perceive me. Eventually, I even got pretty good at hiding it from myself. I socialized, and appeared to be my normal “type-A” self, while I was self-soothing with food and alcohol. Truth is, I felt empty inside and I couldn’t remember a time when I had truly felt happy … like, really happy. In fact, I couldn’t remember the last time I had even laughed.
I pretended that the world, my world, was alright. That everything was okay. But I really felt so alone and I knew that my façade would eventually be my demise. I continued to go down the dark spiral staircase to hell. I didn’t even know who I was anymore. I felt no one noticed that I had changed … that I had become an empty shell of a person … but, everyone noticed. I drank too much, I loathed going to work, and my relationships were falling by the wayside.
Eventually, it all caught up to me. I found myself laying on the bathroom floor, next to the tub, bawling my eyes out. I hit my personal rock bottom! I listened to a song by Whitney Houston, “I Look to You”, over and over and over again. Each time I played it the pain became more intense, the tears more forthcoming. I bawled uncontrollably for hours. I was never the type that would commit suicide but I wanted to die just the same. So, I begged God to bring my home. I told him that I was ready when he was. That if he wanted to take me it was find with me. Life had gotten the best of me and I was ready to give up the fight and surrender.
The next morning, I felt like I had been hit by a truck! Although, oddly enough, I felt a sense of relief. Why? Because I finally released years and years’ worth of repressed feelings. Feelings that I had been holding onto since my childhood. Ironically, hitting my rock bottom was the best thing that could’ve happened to me! I knew it was time to get my shit together and get some help.
I found a therapist and, more importantly, I found a Core Energetic Practitioner. Someone who took me much deeper than a traditional talk therapist is able to do. When I worked with her, I didn’t just sit across from her and talk to her about my life. No. Instead, she pushed my limits by having me move my body and do breathing exercises. I hated it at first because I wanted to stay in my head so I didn’t have to feel anything. I didn’t want to move my body because, deep down, I knew that it was going to take me places I didn’t want to go … right to the heart of feelings I didn’t want to feel.
By doing the work, I faced many of my own demons. I dug deep and feelings came up I didn’t even know I had. The most powerful thing about the work is, the very pain that I avoided – the pain I was so afraid to face – was exactly what freed me! I finally processed all the yucky feelings I had buried deep inside me and it was like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. The skeletons were being let out of the closet and, one by one, I faced them head on. I went to battle against the demons that haunted me … and I won!
Since that time, I’ve gone to get my Masters in Community Counseling and I’m a Certified Core Eergetic Practitioner, Certified Life Coach and National Certified Counselor with over 13 years of experience.
As the founder of Source Your Joy and my motto is …
“Joy is not a mindset or a feeling. Rather it is an energetic way of being.”
I’m known as a revolutionist in the personal development industry – passionate about being a driving force in helping women who are spiritually stuck, overwhelmed, exhausted, stressed or depressed to ‘reclaim their feminine power, unlock their greatest potential, and dance with life again.
Through my extensive personal and professional experience, I have discovered that our capacity to live a vibrant, fulfilling life has been diminished by the trauma, or wounds, we experienced in our childhood. These wounds result in repressed feelings that manifest in our bodies, blocks our energy and prevents us from living the vibrant life we are meant to live.
My methods are systematically designed to help my clients unblock the energy and heal the wounds so they can feel radically alive and, ultimately, connected to their true self again.
Passionate about what I do, I am a self-improvement enthusiast and I’m dedicated to helping women all over the globe by offering individual and group coaching programs, VIP days, and training programs.
It is my mission to truly help you …
Source Your Joy and Dance with Life Again!
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